Hello, I’m a girl, 18 years old, first year in University, and I’m really confused about sexuality, and it’s starting to really bother me, not sure why. I love woman both emotionally and sexually, and I can fall in love with a man emotionally, but not sexually… For the past few years, I’ve been more with guys then girls (it’s hard to find lesbian woman, I’ve only dated 1) I would start to really like the guy, at one point even fall in love with him, but the then when he takes me to bed, I don’t mind oral…but I can’t stand penis. At all. When I was younger, my friends told me i was just “immature” but..here I am in university and I can’t stand it. When I simply think of it near me, it turns me off. But with a girl, it’s the complete opposite.  When I go out, I check out both girl and guys, but more girls. When I masterbate, I think of a girl, never a guy. My parents are homophobes and religious, so I can’t talk about it with them, never, ever. I believe that love is love, it doesn’t matter what sex you fall in love with, but If i do fall in love with a guy, how do I change myself into liking or at least “accepting” him physically/sexually? because I’ve been trying for a couple of years now..and I fail. Im starting to feel really depressed about it.