I am a 30 y.o. male who has messed around with men and women. Sexually, I am turned on by both, but I am more turned on by men. If I mess around with a guy it is usually just mutual masturbation and bj, nothing more. Emotionally, I could never see myself in a long term relationship with a guy. If I decided to get married it would be to a female only. So I am extremely confused. Does this mean I am gay? bi? or what? I have no desire to live a gay lifestyle, but for some reason I find men sexually attractive. I am so confused right now, can someone please offer some advice?
If you are attracted to both men and women, that would make you bi. There is no straight but curious choice here because you sleep with men on a regular basis and are attracted to them sexually, from what you have written here. The question to pose yourself is this; why do you feel you can never see yourself in a same sex emotional relationship? It's not meant to put you on the spot, but might help you figure things out.