What do I do? So me and my boyfriend have been dating for about three years now. He is my first and for all the time we have been together he has never let me top. We have talked about it and it seems that he would rather me leave him and do it with someone else than for us to do it. Like idk I just don’t wanna miss out on doing it. He told me when we first started dating that he would let me but now he just doesn’t even say anything when I bring it up. I love him and I don’t think I could leave him but it frustrates me a bit. Sometimes it also feels like sex is kinda one sided like when I comes to blow jobs he loves getting them but he doesn’t really like giving them and when I ask him he makes it like if it’s a bother and he’ll do it but it’s not enjoyable because it feels like I’m forcing him. Any real suggestions or advice for my situation?