Hi, I’ve never really been into guys all that much, but there were a few who have stood out, but I was never sure if I was actually attracted to them. I never thought about it much until recently. I met a new girl at school, and we got closer because of a mutual friend. And I would never think about her when she wasn’t around. But the next year, I started thinking about her really often, laughing at all her jokes, making every possible excuse to touch her, and fantasizing about kissing her. I’m so awkward around her all the time and my head gets all dizzy around her now, so I can’t think straight. Sometimes she looks at me weird because of this. She’s the last thing I think about at night, and the first thing I think about in the morning. I always worry about how I look when I present myself to her. I think I’m obsessed with her, but I’m not sure, because I don’t admire anything about her especially. She’s very normal, I think. Except for the fact that I think she’s the funniest person in the world, but that probably stems from my obsession. Am I gay for her? Am I obsessed with her? And if I am, how do I get rid of it? Because I can’t imagine telling her about any of this.
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Seems as though you have a good old fashioned crush. I wouldn’t use this as the defining moment of telling if you’re gay though. If you’ feel attraction like this to other women in the future or have in the past, then you could safely bring your sexual orientation into question.
There is no way to get rid of it yourself. But time and contact w/ other people does work wonders.
I also have found through past experience that getting your feelings out there can speed up the whole crushing and “getting over it” process. So, if you ever do feel like telling her, find out how she feels about the LGBT community. If she feels positively, chances are it’s safe for you to tell her.