Hello guys, I am currently in love… I realized that I’m gay since a few years back but I never actually expect to fall in love in this sort of way! this thing is driving me crazy! he is so cute and making me fall for him in may different ways! actually I have a fear of rejection, I am afraid that if I make a move, he will reject me, which is my I’m so confused and need all of your advice! I will list all the stuff that’s been happening between me and him in the last few weeks (we go to the same college): April 12: I wasn’t able to sleep properly the night before, so i was sitting at Starbucks, this day happen to be his birthday. Anyways when i was sitting it was clear that my eyes were so tired, suddenly he came up to me and began massaging my neck… it was so sweet… and his touch was marvelous. April 14: we have different classes on Thursday.. but he keeps staring at me and then stare away shyly.. I smile at him though.. April 15: on this Friday when we meet up, he tries to avoid me because his two friends (his only friends in college are two girls) are there. but on the next class, whenever i was chatting with my friends on my blackberry he try to look at it and find out who im chatting with. he also asks whether i have a girlfriend and i say im single. oh and he keeps saying i smell good! i mean none of my friends (guys and girls) ever say stuff like that! April 19: on this day i decided to tell one of my friends (her name is N) and she said that maybe this guy is just a bit metro-sexual and not exactly gay.. so I decided that there’s a possibility he may not be into me.. April 21: this day is my birthday!!!! you know how he wished me? He came up to me and shake my hands without looking me in the eye, it was like he was embarrassed or something, its so cuteee!!!!!! April 26: this is the day where the signs become so damn clear! its soooo clear!!! we finished our classes at around 5pm.. and decided to go somewhere to eat! but there was this huge traffic.. and this guy keeps playing with my ipad, me and him were sitting on the back of the car, there’s 6 of us in the car. anyways, when the day starts to get dark he started to rest his neck on my shoulder, and push his body against me, it was like he was trying to cuddle with me… it was so great!!!!!… I decided to chat with him, I told him that all my friends are busy and wouldn’t chat with me. and he reply “ok then it seems that i also cant chat with you, byeeee” and when I asked “where are you” he reply “some where” in a flirty manner… basically his messages were so flirty but at the same time it was tempting… he like selling himself expensive to me… so I’m confused.. is he really into me?