Ok, this isn’t exactly a question but I just want to tell my “story” to someone. I am a 15 year old gay and nobody knows. In my country you would not get killed because you are gay but if people knew most of them are not going to be friendly to people like me. So 2 years ago I realized I am gay. For the first time then I felt feelings for a guy. That guy was from my class. At the beginning I just saw he was watching me, so I got interested, then I told myself oh I’m just confused, I’m not gay. But time passed and I started to feel more and more attraction to him. We are now friends. He is always around me, watching me and we don’t stop play fighting. Once I dropped my pen and he ran across the room to pick it up and give it to me. Once there was a rumor that I loved some girl and when he heard he started asking me so passionately if that was true. When we get alone like when we walk back from school, he grabs my hand and plays with it, he pinches my ass :D, he hugs me and all kind of stuff. But he never told me anything more special that we are friends and that was our destiny 😕 . After a few months I will be leaving to live in the US :))) and want to try to forget that I have this amazing crush about him. But every time I see his beautiful green eyes, every time I see his strong hands, every time he talks to me and every time he touches me I realize I can’t forget him.