So, it’s a long story but I’m going to try and make it as short as possible. I’ve been in love with my best friend for a while and she recently told me she had a secret and that secret was that she was in love with me. I know she’s my first love and I know I’m hers. But the problem is she’s 100% straight and she says I’m her one exception. She is constantly worried about people being suspicious because she doesn’t want them to think she’s gay… because she isn’t. So in her mind suspicions developed and one night she said she wanted to hook up (teenage version of make out) with other people. She didn’t want to break up, but I mean I was like what the eff?!?!?! But I honestly just can’t let this girl go so easily so I offered her a deal. She was going to hook up with this kid and then we would see where our relationship was after everything was said and done. So she ended up hating it and the same night we were back together. Now, a couple of weeks later she was talking to one of her guy friends about how hot this one kid was (to cover up, she thinks he’s hot but doesn’t want anything with him). So she told her guy friend she would maybe hook up with him later in the summer and he was like well why wait. She asked me what she should do and I said “do what you want sweetie.” She said I should be mad, but I said I don’t want to be mad, I don’t want to be jealous and I don’t want to get upset. I told her to do what she thinks she has to do and she said she recognizes that technically what she’s doing is cheating btws. She says I don’t understand why she cares about what other people think, but I do. She doesn’t want people to think shes gay… I get that. But shes says I don’t know how it feels to be straight and be in love with a girl and constantly hide it… and I was like HOLD UP GIRL, I know exactly what its like to hide everything because I do it everyday (I’m only out to 2 of my closest friends) and she’s like yeah but it’s not the same blah blah blah. She says if we lived in a completely homosexual world and I went around hooking up with girls to cover up my straightness she would be 1000% understanding, but I mean comeeee onnnnn. This is all so hard for me and I just don’t know what to do. I’m so in love with this girl but I’m still so young. Should I let her hook up with another kid, should I break it up, should I be okay with this, should I be mad, I just don’t know. We’ve already talked about us after we break up and that no matter what happens we’ll always be best friends. YEAH so that wasn’t short at all. If you guys actually read this thank you sosososososososoooo much. It would mean the W O R L D to me.