I’ve been recently worrying about the day when I came out to my mom and friends, I love girls and I am just scared that I’m gonna go backwards and fall back in love with guys and then be confused. I want to marry a girl and I’m like 15 but I love girls and I always want to be with one if I’m with a guy or without a guy, and I just always feel like I need a girl and not a guy because just a guy isn’t good enough and that’s when I realized I was a lesbian… except now I’m just scared. My parents are Christian and my mom still thinks I’m straight or well bisexual but I don’t want a guy, I want a girl. It’s all so confusing because I don’t know how to feel. Does every lesbian know exactly what they want? Have they all completely made up there mind? Because all I feel is confusion… I like girls a lot and I want to be with one, but I get so confused by what people say. And I don’t know who to talk to anymore, I used to have a lesbian friend but she doesn’t talk to me anymore so now I just feel alone and I feel like a disgrace to my family and the world and sometimes I catch myself wishing I was straight but the feelings for guys I used to have are just not there anymore. I don’t know what’s going on with me, ever since I dated a girl I just like girls… I tried dating a guy but I missed the girl relationship while I dated him and I broke up with him and told him that I think I’m a lesbian. And also on top of that I had feelings for one of my best friends who said she liked me but then she well… changed her mind and said she just wants to remain friends. I’m so confused with all my feelings and I don’t think my school counselor gets ANYTHING I’m going through. I feel so alone in the world and my mom said she understood me and now she’s all saying “you’re not a lesbian!” and I’m like then why do I like girls a lot in that way?! I get that feeling that you are supposed to get when you look at a hot guy but with a girl… I don’t get this! I don’t get life!! And on top of that I feel like I won’t be able to attract any girls since I have long hair and I dress straight. I don’t have to change my look right? I just miss being in a relationship with a girl… but I am definitely not ready for one right now. I’m such a mess and I don’t know who to turn to. Please help me. I don’t know if you still have this site going or not… but I need some serious dilemma help.