This will be in my first book…Watch for it in book stores… l was out treadmill searching one afternoon… l ran into this woman in an aisle while waiting for a sales lady to get off the phone. As l needed some help with a treadmill l had my eye on… So l looked at them. Went to the escalator headed for the exit and this woman cut me off. She walked by me so abruptly that l took notice. Thought to myself “wow what’s her rush” Any way, l got home later that night and got a hit on my Facebook account. Keep in mind Facebook can link people who know people very fast. The e-mail went something like this. Please don’t think this is weird or think l was stalking you… But l noticed you looking at treadmills in my department store. l called a friend and she pointed me in the right direction and so here l am…? l think your incredible and had a neat attraction to you. When l cut you off when you left the department store, l was hoping you would follow me to the nearest cafe. But that didn’t happen. So l hope your single and we might be able chat some time. So WOW at first l thought someone was playing a joke on me. So l didn’t answer this woman for a couple of weeks. Although her pictures on Facebook was very enticing I still waited. So l took the bull by the horns and e-mailed her. We chatted for some time and decided we would meet, but it took a lot for her to meet me..?? She seemed shy to meet, almost scared. l found out that her and her ex had broke up and it had only been 4 months. l also found out that she was married for 10 years and had only been with one women, the one that’s the ex. Oh god help me. Everything pointed to run like hell. This girl is messed up and not by choice. But l found myself falling for her neat personality and her compassion for people. She’s sweet, has a little boy, she works like a dog, does volunteer work and is an excellent mom. Plus so much more. She was trying to get a job at a local company which would make her life so much better. In this time of looking for a job we had gone out many times and spent some time together at cafe’s and countless hours on the phone. Her self esteem was very low and she seemed not to think much of her self worth. l tried to make her feel like she was special. We talked how we care about one another there is an attraction for both of us that’s for sure. All of a sudden she told me she couldn’t do this. IN AN E-MAIL, she was sorry but not ready. She was exhausted and couldn’t give the time l deserved. It just wasn’t fair to me. Well l was crushed, it was close to Christmas so l thought maybe that was the problem. Well it wasn’t, she wanted to stay focus on getting this job and l was such a huge distraction. IS WHAT SHE SAID…??? So long story short she likes me very much and has told me she thinks about me everyday but she said her foundation is cracked, she’s a mess. And why would l want to be with her. Well l do want to be with her and could offer so much emotionally and financially. The financial part she doesn’t know because l don’t want her to feel less of a person or a charity case. Never Never. It’s just my personality to want to give, l can’t help it. Anyway she doesn’t want to have any contact until she gets her stuff sorted out Well l gotta tell you, this is the hardest thing l have ever had to do. She’s 41 and l’m 47 and I am only her second girlfriend. It’s about my 4th. She has hit me the hardest and l’m not totally sure why? Maybe because l love the family aspect of dating her. It is a big plus for me. l aways wanted a family, I love children and that feeling of a family unit. She seems to have a great relationship with her little guy and the father which makes it so much easier if l was to get involved with her. But l just don’t know. l have stopped e-mailing her for the pass 6 weeks until recently when l sent out an e-mail asking how she was. l haven’t hear back. Could l be just headed for disappointment? So here is the question, what the heck do l do?